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Tue, 01 Feb 2005 01:09:20 GMT

forgetmy___name
& will not be writting in 2nd_chours anymore
even though i really have not kept it updated
<3

hit hard.

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 23:12:20 GMT

talked to my navy recruiter today & i can honestly say for the first time in my life i was scared of the future. it all just hit me at once. since then my stomach has been twisted in knots.

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 04:14:27 GMT

well im at hollywood right now, with micheal and ash. went to all the shops around the strips. did sum pricing on tats and piercings. friday night was fun night despite the fact that the movie we saw was a wast of money. i'd adive everyone NOT to go see the seed of chucky!!! i got this cool necklace from the shop, very impresive.

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 21:32:33 GMT

still waiting to get the internet back. right now im at omars house. waiting for tiff to come over<3333 *waits* its a suprise she doesnt know im here. this should be great!

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 21:31:11 GMT

hey! yeah i know i havent been updating but my internet is yet, still crashed. its taking forever to get back connected. so much has happend this past month. good & bad. best thing would be i actually found something pure. that i will hold on to forever. right now im in la porte at my sisters house, cacthing up on the missed time. tiffany gave me a kitten 'cowboy' is his name. i hate cats; love this one though. lastnight we stayed up all night talking on the phone around 8 this morning i decided to go ahead and start my day. on the other hand she decided to go to sleep. go figure. <3

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 22:48:35 GMT

this hurts

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 00:00:39 GMT

I love you sweetheart, for you. You’ve changed me; through our relationship, I’ve matured. Somewhere along the lines of the maturing & the turbulent summer, I fell in love with you. The concept wasn't just loving me, but to every aspect. In return, I gave you my all. Must have been something in your voice; the way the 'I love you Lacko' made me feel. I let myself go with you, took a chance, & discovered myself. For 15 days now though I feel as if I’ve been self-centered, as a result of me being timid. Agony isn’t what I want you to consume. Lately though, we’ve had no other alternative since the 8th, with our parents finding out. Every day since then I feel as If a piece of you die’s. Some may say your only my ‘addition’, or im only your ‘addiction’, which is by far not factual at all. Additions are only faults we cant overcome & we aren’t that. Were two people that were meant to find each other, through the good & bad. It’s hard to let you go, knowing the space between is 10 months till we will have a clean slate, & choose to do what we desire to do. love, tell me when you want out.

bitch.

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 15:52:13 GMT

someone slashed my tire & i wonder who it was.

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 06:37:55 GMT

& I'll start again with a brand new name
& eyes that see into infinity

i will disappear

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 22:50:18 GMT

so earlier today somehow peter started talking about how he was going to dl the new avril cd. & i said why? & he said because its crunk. then i decided to ask if he was going to burn it & he said hell yes. lol. so i said well shit, are you going to dl the new britney cd? his response was hell no shes gay. he always seems to entertain me.

memories of 04 class

Mon, 31 May 2004 03:17:38 GMT

class of 04' graduation was aslmost as if it was some kind of an award to me. Seeing old bestfriends, bestfriends, & friends walk across the stage. With each & everyone of them, leaving a lasting impression on my heart. some leaving with being in 'love' & some with being in love with eachother. others only leaving with, well nothing, only grudges held strong against people. its depressing, like the friendships that use to be from years ago & even this school year arn't there anymore. at least i got to tell congrats to the people that i wanted to. so all in all it was overwhelming.

Sat, 15 May 2004 14:27:01 GMT

so it all comes to this after messages left on my phone but my so called x bestfriend ruben accusing me of taking megan to galvaston with chris; that just really did it for me. you know im going to be blunt as hell with this after you were introduced to your 'sex life' you changed. actually i think you always had it in you but that just really hit it for you. making you just like every other guy with a one track mind. this time around in your relationship i pretty much knew about everything & actually how you treat them. i guess im lucky right off the bat i made you have respect for me. your finally relazing something, your leaving off to college youve lost all your bestfriends. that should really show you something. yeah im being a bitch about this but i did care about you a lot you were my best guy friend at one point. one thing that really got me lastnight was you talked to jennifer about mine & your fights. just like you dont want chris hearing anything about your life i dont want my ex b/f knowing about me. it makes me feel like im still connected to her & i dont want to be in any way at all. shes fake, & has changed, thinking shes better then everyone; yeah she may have more money then a lot of ppl but that doesnt mean shit, i know im a better person than her. only reason im bringing these last few details up is because i had a lot off ppl telling me this the other day. how can you confide in someone just like that? & someone like her. after you and her not talking in how long? after her completey dropping you just because she got annoyed with you. fucking pathetic if you ask me.

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 19:09:36 GMT

hey!

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 00:47:47 GMT

while on the phone with peter he was cleaning out his room
ya know throwing away all these old papers
he came across pokemon cards and he asked me if i wanted to trade him
it was so adorably cute
i couldnt help but laugh, while at the same time wanting to give him the biggest hug ever
hes such a little baby at times, but a cute one of course :)
*yawn* just woke up from a nap right now
peters mom and him were going to come up to see me at lunch
buuuuuuuuut they ended up not coming
poop on them
peter has stolen my guitar and wont give it back *rarw*
byebye
* **** *****

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 23:13:59 GMT

lets see
from last tuesday
ive been pretty buzy
megans softball games, battle of the bands with peter, megan, justin, preston, elle
saw madeline and gwen up there, havent seen thim in a while since im not at cy ridge anymore (thank god)
last weekend on saturday stayed out all nite
with peter, chris, alicia, franklin, megan cook
one badass night :)
ended up running to ruben and dennis at wills house around 6am
this past weekend on friday went out to eat with peter
then went to kellys house and chilled
after that picked up megan then the four of house hung out all nite
peter and kelly were bared out, *gah*, what a night
around 12 got preston, hung out with him till around 5am then took him home
parked in sum apartment complex and slept there till around 8
then took kelly and peter home
megan and i ate at chick fil a yuuuumy!
saturday the rest of the day i was with megan, ended up spending the night, going to church on sunday morning
ate dinner at her grandparents house, wacthed movies, then she came back with me to my house and she spent the night
on monday we didnt wake up till around 1
peter had everyone and their moms calling me to get a hold of him
he is to sweet, i love you!
took megan up, met them by west rd.(peter, chris, lynn. christina)
went to walmart, wendys, back to my house
yeah this is one long entry oh well thats what i get for not updating
i know im missing a lot of shit though
<3

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 02:32:48 GMT

well havent updated
heres some new things
i finally quit
im out of my hell hole boston market job
only if i could be a kid again
spoiled, the works
that was the life
maybe i can get back to that :)
more to say later, goodnite.

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 21:32:08 GMT

i feel like crap
very pissed off, since you acted like you didnt give a shit at school
to top it off, im off to work
fuck a duck!

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 22:36:27 GMT

friday night didnt do much of anything
just phone and computer pretty much
defensive driving on sat. morning 6 1/2 hour class!
ah it wasnt too too bad though
9-3:30 *shrug*
afterwards picked up peter
came back to my house
then everyone and their mom started calling my cell
ended up going out to huckley with chris, theres a ranch out there and a trail you can walk
by the time we knew it the sun was already rising<333333
so awsum
kinda got in a little trouble though since i didnt tell my mom i was going to stay out all nite
same for peter as well
around 10:30 this morning came back home
running on no sleep, not to good, when this weekend i was suppose to cacth up on my sleep
good thing about it is figured out a lot of stuff lastnite
with all of the convo's

presto! how come you lost my number when you really needed it!
you missed all the fun

peter has to leave in a bit :( so im out for now

peter<3

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 04:09:00 GMT

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 05:15:21 GMT

peter just left
we wacthed sum more movies tonite
my gm at work talked to me today
he really didnt want me to leave
so he asked me 'do you really want to leave????'
i said ehhhh no because ive been here for 7 months already
but i just hate how robert is being
always having his damn g/f over, him sitting down and eating
when there is a big ass line and im the only front person
or when im the only person there and im running drive through and the front
rarw!
or how he is always on the phone with her while im working my ass off
so rick said he is going to talk to him
just give him some time and he is going to handle everything
rick is a cool gm to have
which is a good
from now on im working sat. mornings :)
sunday nites
hell yeah
woohoo
next thursday! battle of the bands!
oh yeah! oh yeah!
usually my days off are mondays and thursdays
so ill prolly end up going
for now i must get sleep <3

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 05:10:01 GMT

ahhhhhh i need sleeeeep!
when i went to put gas after picking up peter once i got off of work
the guy in cheveron was like are you ok?
(i think he thought i was on drugs)
lol
after me saying yes he said 'alright then'
hehe it was funny
my manger is so stupid
cool schedule this week
off thursday and sunday
work sat 12-3
all the other days work from 4 till around 9
im off to sleep <33333

sping break is over

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 04:21:41 GMT

i hate the ring to that
no more spring break
never really had a chance to sleep in late
really blows
wouldnt have guessed half the things that have happend over spring break
yesterday it was my sisters birthday whole family was over at her house
went to the mall yesterday,park, icecream
just a very eventfull past few days
i better get some sleep, so i can wake up in the morning.

Fun Times!!

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 20:06:37 GMT

Well well well look what i got into :-). Oh yeah by the way this is Peter and I'm updating for Lacko because I can. Last night we spent 130$ on Dvds. Lacko fell asleep while I watched a few before falling asleep my self from boredom (Yea I stayed the night). I don't know what we're doing today, but we're supposed to be going to Galveston for sure next weekend since we didn't get to go this weekend. Yesterday we went to her sister Stephanies house, and my little girl hailey was there, but obviously she didn't remember me even thought she looks at Lackos wall and points to old pictures of me because she ran away from me when i tried to give her a hug. Oh well.

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 07:29:31 GMT

im thirsty and there arnt any cokes to drink
all i can hear right now are 4 drunks in the kitchen laughing
mom, dad, her friend, her friends husband
crazyness

past few days have been good
but uhhhhhhhhh, thursday, dont ask
even though i may seem like im not mad
its when im now showing it
is when i am the most

and to you i know your going your prolly arleady like how are you okay with her already
well here is your answer she at least attempted to want to fix things
because she did call me the next morning once she got home
what i noticed about you is only when your around enough to care about things
is when your going to care
when your not around enough you could give a fuck about me

friday night pat green, it was an okay show.
rides were fun though :)

im goign to go finish wacthing all the other movies<3

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 16:22:05 GMT

its 3:30 in the morning right now
just got home
funny thing is i dont think my mom knows that i left my house again
after i got home for the first time, oh well

tonight was fun :)
thanks to someone
who totally turned my night around